i dont know how to tell you to back off,
go away and leave me alone.
i dont wish to turn a cold shoulder towards you
but you're freaking me out.
and others agree with me.
stop being so over-friendly? maybe?
because ive only known you less than a month
why/what are you trying to show others
, that we're best/close buddies?
cos friendship doesnt work that way.
yes, im being nice out of politeness.
i do care, but frankly i dont really care about you.
because i dont know you at all.

i wish i know a nice way to tell you to keep to your limits.
aniwae im rushing my PI now.
hurhur...
and my grp has koped karl and terence's groups' GPP to uh.
emulate from. hurhurhur.
sorry terence hope you guys dont mind.
will return it into de file when we're done. =P

oh... and i do love the rain, too.
i remember how i was sitting in the car and my mom was driving.
then she drove to lim chu kang to buy some stuff from de organic farm there.
and i was sitting in de car alone.
overhead the black clouds just started leaking.
then it poured...
and i dont know why, i just started crying.
crying... for no reason. or maybe just cos its so beautiful
to see the silver streaks pelting down
rhythmic soothing light thumps on the windscreen.
its the only familiarity constant in my life, it seems.
and it happened again,today.
standing alone at the banisters overlooking the patchy field.
the dark clouds gathered overhead, and i just stood there
exhilaration raised by the wind kissing my face
to soak in the whole scene before my eyes.
and to cry with the rain coming down.
so there are parts of life that can be relived over and over again, afterall.

i guess i felt confused.
when you asked me, for advice on such stuff.
cos after all, you're the one who's supposed to be adept at this
with your eloquence
whereas i blunder along.
and yet you turn to someone so inexperienced, so naive, so clueless for advice.
but well,
as usual id say.
glad i could help, thoh it wasnt much.